Friday, November 30, 2007

Indian Ocean

I'm in love with this band. The music is simply awesome. "Meloncholic Ecstacy" fills me with a spectrum of emotions. If you still haven't heard it, do that right now!

Just read that they'e coming to delhi...Date: December 1
Venue: SAARC Band Festival, Central Park CP, New Delhi
Time: 8.30 P.M.
Tickets: Entry Free...

Whoa! am going there....

Sharma Ji, wish you were here!

Monday, November 26, 2007

अरविंद मामा

मुझे मामा के साथ बात करना पसंद है क्यूंकि हर बार उनसे बात करने पर कुछ नया सीखने को मिलता है और उनका point of view मुझे एक और दिशा दिखता है।

उनसे बात करने से मुझे प्रेरणा मिलती है कि मैं सतत बेहतरी के पथ पर बढूँ। हम रूक नही सकते। हम थक भी नही सकते। मैं नही सोच सकता था कि मैं कभी Oxford/LSE/Stanford कि बातें करूंगा। शायद मैं उन जगह न भी पहुंच पाऊँ, लेकिन यह बात कि आज कमसकम मैं वहाँ जाने की तमन्ना रखता हूँ, क्या यही कुछ कम है?

यह मत सोचो कि अभी क्या मिल रहा है, यह सोचो कि आज से ५ साल या १० साल बाद क्या मिलेगा ।हम जीते या हारे, ये मेरा bhavishya teh करेगा न कि मेरा vartmaan


" आहूति बाक़ी, यज्ञ अधूरा
अपनों के विघ्नों ने घेरा
वर्तमान के मोहपाश में ,
आने वाला कल न भुलाएं,
आओ फिर से दिया जलायें! "
~~ वाजपेयी , आओ फिर से दिया जलायें

Friday, November 23, 2007

Placements 2008 : A make or break thing?

Hari told me today that placements are very important because they will determine where we'll finally end up in our lives and are thus a make or break thing.

I don't think so. Looking back at my short 24 yr old life, I think that at each point there were aways some pressing problems which we thought were make or break. Remember the class X board? or class XII ones? or some exams at resonance or even IIT JEE? They all were damn impat that time but now i don't think so. there are new opportunities today which have taken that mindspace.

The leitmotif of make or break still exists although. And it always will. For remember there is no true happiness ,only 'In pursuit of happiness'
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PS : Congrats Ruhani ! :)

Thursday, November 22, 2007

फुददु कौन है?

कौन मूरख़ है? क्या वो जो धीरे सोचता है , या वो जो धीमे काम करता है, या वो जो पढाई अथवा खेल-कूद में पिछड़ा है?क्या वो जो अजीब सवाल पूछता है या वो जो अजीब बातें करता है ,या फिर वो जिसका काटने में सबसे अधिक आनंद आता है?

कहना मुश्किल है ! लेकिन ज़रा सोच के देखिये, हम सब जीवन के किसी न किसी मोड़ पे, कुछ मूर्ख़ता नही करते है? एक सवाल उभरता है.... क्या हम सब, किसी न किसी की नज़रों में मूर्ख नही हैं?

हमे क्या अधिकार है की किसी का मजाक उडायें ? हमे क्या अधिकार है की किसी और की बुराई करें ? ख़ुद में कभी झांक कर तो देखे की आखर हम कौन बड़ी तोप है जो दूसरे को गधा कहे!

फुददु वो है जो अपने को दूध का धुला समझे और सोचे की उससे बेहतर व्यक्ति नज़र नही आता. नज़र उठा के देख आदम!! हर वो चीज़ जो मै करता हूँ, मुझसे १०० गुना बेहतर कोई और कर सकता है, और हर वो चीज़ जिसपे तुम इतराओ , उससे १०० गुना वोही किसी और के पास भी हो

"बना है शाह का मुसाहिब , फिरे है इतराता
वरना शहर में गालिब की आबरू क्या है "

CFA Experience - 3 June 2007

Ok. So I came all the way back from Delhi to take the CFA exam in Bombay on June 3, 2007. so what if the useless trip cost me 12,000 bucks. It was well worth the efforts, time and money…. Or was it?

Ummm… may be not. this exam was different. .. Chalo let me start from the beginning

I landed at Mumbai airport after flying through beautiful clouds aboard an Indian airlines flight. People say that their service is poor; however it was much better than Go air. Anyways, I had a window seat and for the first time was in an airplane while being in midst of a storm. The plane was shaking violently and was bumping too… seemed more of being in a bus from Kota to Ajmer rather than in a plane from del to bom.

Anyways, after a 45 min delay I landed at Mumbai airport at about 8 PM. I had already made my boarding arrangements at 3 places. So I went to NITIE because it was closest to the test centre at Thakur Engg college at Kandivili. I got a room on 7th floor, number 707. it seemed as if the airplane thing was just not leaving me. There the room was in a mess and no pillows or bed sheets were provided. So I borrowed a bed sheet from shriharsha which I eventually used as a pillow because I didn’t want the sleep to be a pain in the neck (pun intended)

When I landed in NITIE, Chandan told me that PPO decision is due on Tuesday. Now I already know what skimpy chance do I have at a PPO so it didn’t bother me much. However there was, and is, a small feeling that ….. Chalo, let’s leave that for a moment.

So I borrowed an alarm clock. I set multiple alarms just to make sure that I don’t forget to wake up in the morning. . I studied a bit of GIPS and asset valuation before I slept at 11 30.

I woke up at 5 30 AM. But then I thought “ki agar life mein neend nahi poori ki to kya kiya?”. So I slept for an hour more and woke up at 6 30 AM out of sheer tension. Then quickly got ready and was set to leave for the exam.

A break here--- at this point I must state that NITIE campus is very beautiful. I liked it very much, about the same as PEC.

Haan to as I was saying, when I was going out of the hostel I found a few guys all ready like me. I guessed immediately that they too were CFA candidates. Since there was only one centre at Bombay, my baniya buddhi thought it better to share an auto (read cut my operating expenses by half). So I sat with this padhakoo looking guy. The route from NITIE to kandivili was very beautiful. It was a cloudy day and that really cheered me up. In fact it was so beautiful that I really had a doubt that this place was in Bombay. Chalo koi na, I finally reached thakur’s at about 7 50 AM.

There were lots of people at the centre. Around 2000 may be. There were a quite a few sexy looking chicks too, which busted my myth of finance being a male dominated area. Or may be it was just another application of looks-and-boobs-can-take-you-places theory

Jo bhi ho, the centre was very well managed. Invigilators were wearing a seemingly bulletproof yellow top up shirt which reminded me of a parrot. I asked one of them why was it like that and she told me it’s CFA policy. I though that the CFA institute makes people work like an ass and look like a parrot… what are they somehow affiliated to PeTA? But then I just shrugged off the feeling and continued my observations at the firagi test centre. There were big posters of Cell phones not allowed and Laptops/ PC’s not allowed all over the place. They were printed on pretty decent paper and I wondered how much would have this bullshit cost them. But with all that $845 fees, they can spend money on things like that I guess.

So then I went inside the centre where they repeatedly checked my hall ticket and Passport. They’re pretty touchy on these issues yaar. So then they gave us a very well printed exam booklet and OMR sheet and read the instructions aloud. The test began at sharp 9 AM according to the 30 Rs digital ‘hello kitty’ watch that I purchased from Dwarka.

I started with Portfolio Mgmt . there were 6 qns and I did not know answer to 1. CML and SML were heavily tested material. I then moved to asset valuation. But I found that tough and in the mid section went to economics which I again found tough. There were some qns on monetary policy effects on currency appreciation that I’m sure I did bad in. I next moved to Quant which was ok types and to Ethics which were fine. Then I went back to asset valuation before finally doing Financial statement analysis, which as again OK.
So in essence, asset valuation was tough and other sections were fine… but I din’t have that ‘phod diya’ feeling in AM test.

BUT I finished the test 1hour before .

Then there was a break for 2 hours where I had a very oily chola bhatura and a fag. This guy from ICFAI was also smoking and I cursed his institute a bit. He was curious about IIFT and I gave him general gyaan.

I met a few of my college seniors also during the exam

Then came the afternoon session.

This section was easier. I started with portfolio mgmt again which was just OK types. Lots of CML/SML qns again. Then I moved to asset valuation which I found easy. As I was a bit confidant, I moved to FSA which again was easy. Nest I went to Economics which was cool . Then was Quant which I think I cracked. Last was ethich where again I did well.
Overall paper was easy But tricky. Also lots of ‘ratta’ is required. Theory is big time important. Even quant had theory in it.

So in essence, AM was bad and PM was good. However, because AM was Quite bad, I’m 80% sure I’ll pass. Ok may be 90% but definitely not 100%


Out of 240 qns I did not know/got confused in 54 qns.

Assuming I knew the answers at this much correct of level, my score is

70%level 75%level 80% level 83%level 85% level
sure 186 130.2 139.5 148.8 154.38 158.1
unsure 54 13.5 13.5 13.5 13.5 13.5
Total 143.7 153 162.3 167.88 171.6
% 59.875 63.75 67.625 69.95 71.5

at most I can get 74% approx

Most probably I’ll get 68% types. So that’s it. I’m borderline case in this exam

CFA Exam Cancelled - 22 May 2007

Today the first email that I checked in the morning informed me that CFA exam has been cancelled in India this june. I couldn’t really figure what it really meant. For starters, I just couldn’t believe that this could be true. An institute which is over 60 yrs old and which has been conducting exams in India for the past 10 years, can’t really show up 10 days before the exam and say,”listen folks, I’m sorry but we ain’t gonna conduct this exam” right?

Wrong. They did send us a terse letter telling just this. And I ( & others as well) who has slogged so long for the past 7 months has been left high and dry over this ugly battle between CFAI and ICFAI. All my hard work has gone down the drain, and even the moolah might be in danger. But most importantly, what about my time?? What about so many hours of reading and mental acrobatics over arcane topics which could’ve been utilized more effectively.

I feel cheated. Money is not the issue. The real issue is the time that I spent and which will never come back. Yes, Its true that all this time & hard work that I had put in has added value to me as a professional. Its true as well that preparing for this exam exposed me to so many new things that I did not know about finance. But still, there was always that aim to get the coveted three letters appended to my name that made me go on even though when I wanted to quit.

I remember that even in the final hours before the trimester exam I was still preparing for CFA. And this was so because all this time I always considered CFA to be more prestigious than MBA. MBA received a step brotherly treatment from me rather. If I had some time left, I’d listen to Saradhi’s bakwaas or Sindhwani’s diatribe in between changing from one page to another on my FSA book, but I had my priority clear in my mind

Now I observe, that I actually learnt nothing from MBA because I consciously CHOSE NOT to learn. CFA took priority over MBA because I deliberately downplayed MBA in my mind and that’s why I’m feeling so bad about this sine die postponement of the exam. The two years that I spent in IIFT could’ve been utilized much more efficiently. I could’ve made many more friends, I could’ve read so many more issues of HBR or done some research work on neural networks per se. But nothing.

So now I’m left with a knowledge, which although adds value to me as a person, means nothing for the employer because it’s simply not recognized. And in this pursuit of neverland, I’ve screwed my MBA experience and am just the same person that I was, 2 years before I entered this school

So long, big hopes. Time for reality check now.


Paradise lost.

The Invitation that never was - 15 May 2007


“A walk in the village of Gularbhoj, Uttaranchal”
(1 weekend +fri/mon Between 15-30 june,2007)



A 3/ 4 day rejuvenation camp in company of PEC friends

Hey!!
Are you, yes you: I mean the guy reading this mail, tired of a boring stay at NCR?
Are you frustrated with your routine ?
Do you feel that your company considers you as just an extension of the computer?
Or do you remember the bygones?
Or do you miss Varun Agrawal(not agarwal/not aggarwal)’s company?
Or do you think that you require a break from this !@#$ life of yours??
Or ummm…am running out of ideas..just substitute one here.


If yes!!!

Then we have got the perfect plan for you!!!

Join us at the special village tour at village gularbhoj, District Udham singh nagar, Uttaranchal

Just 6 hours from Delhi by bus (200 KMS)


Exclusivity :
  • no peeping/irritating fellow travelers
  • Good-Old-days feeling
  • Limited seats ( only PEC- electrical 2006 friends of 02459 eligible)
  • Exclusive friend list
    Sharma Ji (the boss)
    GG : the himesh Reshamiya
    RG: the kamaal friend
    Raman Arya & his brother : His excellancy, The prince(s) of Narwana
    Avneet : our gumshuda friend
    Bajad: does he need an introduction??
    Special Attraction : BBBBBUUUUDDDDYYYYYY ( Er Parmeet Singh)
    ( the I’m-coming-on-so – u – better-get-d-party-started Sensation!!!)
  • NO CAREER DISCUSSIONS AT ALL
  • A walk in the village bazaar
  • A ride in tractor
  • A ‘swim’ in the tube well
  • A picnic on the river
  • A walk on the dam
  • A trip to Nainital
  • Roaming on Nainital streets
  • (if possible) Adventure sports in Rishikesh
  • Meeting with Mr Varun Agrawal(not agarwal/not aggarwal)’s grandmother who knows all
  • the guests.( especially Navu & Bajad)
  • Ghar ka khaana
  • Walk on village streets that lead to nowhere
  • Ride in the Indian railways amidst the last remains of a jungle
  • Bajad & boss’s witty remarks
  • Varun Agrawal’s (not agarwal/not aggarwal) PJ’s
  • Kite flying
  • Watching the 1000’s of firefly(Jugnu)* …..(subject to availability)
  • Star Gazing--- Real stars,not city lights/pg 3 people
  • Playing with the dog if he doesn’t bite you
  • Etc etc etc


    However please note: Following activities are banned!!!!!

    · Being in a sullen mood
    · Talking about IT life
    · Not mixing with other guests
    · not being cheerful
    · PEC-LANGUAGE ( YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN *&@#) in village


    RULES AND REGULATIONS ARE SUBJECT TO CHANGE WITHOUT NOTICE



    Varun Agrawal
    Mumbai contact number : 9833847216
    Varun.pec@gmail.com

Summer Blues 18 May 2007

Whoa! Life has changed so much after my guide returned. Suddenly I find myself amidst loads of work. I have to work till 7:30 , 6 days a week.
Apparently my guide got a shouting from the bosses in Europe over the plans which he had. My boss’s boss was also telling him, “ Your plans are bullshit … absolute bullshit Doc” . Now that he has to perform, he has told me to buckle up. Now my project will involve loads of traveling and ‘sir-khapai’. After all He has to deliver, and I have to do the work. How logical.

So now here I am, enroute my way to Ambala & Solan. Trying to figure out all about mushrooms. Reminds me of that sub-edible mushroom-mutter that we used to get in PEC.. yaad hai? Those were the days when we would just go to mezbaan-11 and dine to our hearts content in 70 rupees. In Bombay saala a ‘bhutta’ costs 25/- . washing a shirt costs 15/- . washing a pant costs 25/-. 1 dozen of mangoes cost 250 Rs et al.

And amidst all this workload is the CFA exam on june 3. 25 days more. And now I’m ready to press the panic button. Thank god that I have completed the syllabus so I know that I’ll be able to revise it. Had I not, would have been dead turkey by now.

ज़रा हट के, ज़रा बच के 8 May 2007

The fact that I’m writing this piece proves I have been able to survive the 89% humidity levels and the rotten-fish-stench of the Bombay climate. Thank you god that you had sent me to Kota where I was accustomed to all un-inhabitable conditions that humans could stand and am reaping(read sweating) that benefit now.

My project in company is in a mess. My guide has gone to EU to negotiate business while I am left here trying to figure out some way to supplement Unilever’s coffers with yet more riches. My work involves sourcing agricultural raw materials for Unilever worldwide from India. Am working on saffron & Walnuts now and might have to travel to Kashmir for them. After all 98% of these products are in Kashmir. To be specific, 100% of saffron is in pulwama district and 98% walnuts are in Anantnag & Doda district. I have stated to appreciate the stereotypical American Doper’s comment, "Peace man!!”
Anyways, now that I have merrily wasted my time(emptied the coffee machine/surfed the internet/eating Parle G) in office thinking about ‘innovative’ ideas to save moolah on RM, I now dread what if my guide , on coming back from the EU trip, asks what Bajad’s boss asked him, “sow(show) me the money, sow me the money!”
So one day I went to Bandra Bandstand. At 8 PM when I was going there, a policewallah stopped me and asked, “ Where is the girl?”. I answered that I don’t have a girl. At this he replied that I’m not allowed to visit the beach if I don’t have a ‘ladki’.. WTF..man I’m moving towards another spell of depression........

My first Post

Decadence is setting in. My ideas & ethics are dying and am everyday getting more and more materialistic.

A number of thoghts cross my mind everyday. This is an attempt to word my emotions on a gamut of things.

If you're here to find some fun stuff, you'll be dissapointed. This is meant to be more of a chronicle rather than an intellectual/entertainment portal!

However, if you're here to see what have i been up to; you're more than welcome.